Hello, all! I'm glad to be back again to write about an experience that God has given me. I hope that you all can read this and apply it to your life!
This past week has been quite an emotional rollercoaster for me. I have been losing sleep, and on top of that, it seemed to me that other people forgot about me. I'm going to be somewhat vague because I do not want to say specific names or events.
Anyway, everything lead up to last night. Someone told me something, and it made me lose control. The tears came down my face, and all I asked was, "why me God? why me?...." I was confused why God would let me suffer so. The act of crying hurts me so much because it reminds me the last time I truly cried. I wasn't sure what to do. Should I hide myself? Should I just act as if I am ok?
God reminded me of a verse that I have on a bracelet which says "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." (Psalm 37:4) This verse reminded me of all that God has given me, all that He has done for me in the past year. He has given me wonderful friends, a family who is starting to come to Christ, and the strength to help me to pull through my TMJD everyday. I thought, so why should I ask God "why?" He has given me all that I need now. And although there is more that I want, He will give it to me in time. That's what happened to me last night. I was angry that God did not give me what someone else now has. But, so what? God has given me Jesus Christ, the One and Only Savior that always wants me to come back to Him.
I ended up doing something after this thought process that I have never done before. I praised God, I thanked Him for what He has given me, and for giving me life. I thanked God even for my suffering because I know that he will give me what I want soon. All I have to do is be patient, and wait.
Do you see yourself impatient? Know that there is always a plan for you, and God does care. God gives you what you want and need when the time is right.
